tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post6946137831357294653..comments2023-09-06T11:44:47.871-04:00Comments on That's What I Was Going To Say: Today's Anxiety Attack: A Stalemate With The DemonsBryan Rutthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10472194924621675627noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post-22424055571284860302013-05-23T19:33:19.220-04:002013-05-23T19:33:19.220-04:00Thank you, Joan, on two counts! First, thank you f...Thank you, Joan, on two counts! First, thank you for your thoughtful and empathetic comment; second, thank you for giving me cause to re-read this post. I am fortunate in that I have come a long way in the two years since I originally wrote this post. I won't say I've conquered my demons; no, that will be a lifelong struggle. But I can say their attacks are less frequent and less powerful as I grow better at recognizing them and coping with them. I hope for continued improvement for you as well. It's not an easy thing to share, as I'm sure you know, but sometimes merely sharing the experience lessens the impact. Hope you'll drop by and read more in the future!Bryan Rutthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10472194924621675627noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post-28158253381888420922013-05-23T13:55:36.694-04:002013-05-23T13:55:36.694-04:00Hello Bryan I happened upon your blog. I was looki...Hello Bryan I happened upon your blog. I was looking up demons and anxiety. Yes, they go hand and hand. I have lived with anxiety for about 30 years now. Some moments, days, months, years worse than others. However, I notice one thing. I always get through them. This does not lessen the pain they cause. My symptoms have lessened. I am reading the word of God and trusting HE is the one in control NOT me. Thank you Jesus. I am now battling separation anxiety. I believe after reading your post you have this too. Along with the what "if's" I am soooo tired of the what "if's" I am tired of anxiety period. BUT I believe the closer my walk with God the less I have them and the easier it is for me to rebuke the devil and he flees. Though I am saddened by the places I miss or the memories I can have do to this crippling fear. The odd thing is I really fear nothing. It is the symptoms of whatever.... I actually have a peace in life. I have come to learn it is my wanting to be in control. UGH!! I rebuke that word. Trust... I trust God but NOT me. The odd thing is everyone sees me as strong and able to do anything. Ha... are they fooled or am I truly what they see?? All I know is "perfect love cast out all fear" So I will put my faith in God and let HIM drive the car. HE doesn't require my help BUT I surely require HIS. Thank you Jesus. Blessings for peace in your life Bryan. And to all other who suffer the with evil spirit of anxiety. Cast that bad boy out. Amen. Joan The Baptisthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16502679095829666405noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post-79597844496065751292011-03-30T13:18:25.501-04:002011-03-30T13:18:25.501-04:00Thank you, everyone, for your wonderful and suppor...Thank you, everyone, for your wonderful and supportive comments. Posts like these aren't easy to write, but they are necessary - for me at least. And while I am, more often than not, terrified of hitting the "post" button after writing something like this, I am learning that sharing these experiences is not only therapeutic for me, but in some ways for others as well. Maybe that's my way to pay forward the support of my friends.<br /><br />It's often difficult to find the right words to describe the irrational thoughts that get going during these attacks. What I've described above is really only the tip of a crazy iceberg, but I hope it gives some idea of what goes on in my head. Those of you who also suffer anxiety disorders certainly understand!<br /><br />Thanks again. Your words mean more to me than you know.Bryan Rutthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10472194924621675627noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post-20559823416765662942011-03-30T12:03:34.210-04:002011-03-30T12:03:34.210-04:00Wow. Great post. I don't have any personal e...Wow. Great post. I don't have any personal experience with anxiety disorders, and this really helps me understand how they operate and the effects. You have a wonderful gift to be able to share this with the world -- and I might add that the thought of sharing one's soul would create intense anxiety in others, so don't discount the specialness of your strengths. It sounds like you have a great friend too -- by you sharing her response, I now know better how to react if I am in her shoes. Reading this just made me a better person. Thank you.<br /><br />(In case you are wondering, I found your blog through the CrazyWidow blog.)Wendyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18287786945607376110noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post-26270188382395655432011-03-30T10:11:48.162-04:002011-03-30T10:11:48.162-04:00Awesome post...and, thank you for being so transpa...Awesome post...and, thank you for being so transparent and admitting what many of us go through in our minds and fail to admit. Hey, enjoy the Hershey and savor the fact that you had the courage to come clean with the friend instead of pushing that anxiety down to attack you another day.Amy Goodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12479584330883637843noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post-34077119955509638622011-03-30T10:01:06.278-04:002011-03-30T10:01:06.278-04:00Great post - good explanation of something that I ...Great post - good explanation of something that I can identify very strongly with. I have panic disorder with agoraphobia. That said, I have lived all over the country. You can do anything. If you haven't already, check out Charles Linden. His program is really helpful. It sounds like you have a strong grasp of the process of your attacks, now you just need to take the power away from them. I still struggle, and I sometimes still avoid some things. But, I find when I do things I think are undoable, it gets better. Just small steps. One day at a time. Wishing you the best. You are intelligent and creative and your mind is just too busy doing the wrong thing. It will get better.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post-86788595787248414932011-03-30T09:41:38.378-04:002011-03-30T09:41:38.378-04:00Wonderful, and very personal post, Bryan. You'...Wonderful, and very personal post, Bryan. You've given us a lot of insight into the disorders, and we've come away with a better understanding. As someone with a family members with problems (including a nephew with Schizophrenia) with a Social Anxiety Disorder, it was oftentimes hard to understand why they wouldn't show up at important family functions. My first reaction was always "he's just being rude" but then I'd stop myself and try and put myself in his shoes. This blog post does just that...puts us all in your shoes. Even though you're not doing the Boston road trip, I congratulate you on at least getting to Hershey. Have fun!Janellehttp://krimpet.tumblr.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post-86363648466104544242011-03-30T09:31:15.735-04:002011-03-30T09:31:15.735-04:00Brian, you DO get to the enjoy this. I saw you ty...Brian, you DO get to the enjoy this. I saw you typed that twice "I don't get to enjoy this." I understand that sentiment, I relate to it. While I have anxieties, they are nothing like what you have and do experience. I am glad you admitted your needs to your friend, and I am even more glad that she took it and just went with it. You have a great support system. I hope you lean on them more often. So glad that you shared with us Bryan!Brendahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18180534884268199362noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post-16024844958878299142011-03-30T09:04:08.850-04:002011-03-30T09:04:08.850-04:00*hugs* I get that kind of crippling anxiety. Good ...*hugs* I get that kind of crippling anxiety. Good for you for finding a triumph in how you handled it.<br /><br />And your friend is right - you ARE great. :)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post-9316677207550733642011-03-30T08:57:10.991-04:002011-03-30T08:57:10.991-04:00One of the many reasons I love you! You are so op...One of the many reasons I love you! You are so open, honest, raw and vulnerable! Anyone who knows you loves you for a million different reasons, one of which is that you are who you are and don't apologize for that (not that you haven't wanted to - we all feel that at one point or another!). I can relate to so much of what you have shared and my daughter has very similar struggles also, but we have all learned that if we can push through, shove the demons aside or sneak around them, that we are often glad that we did! Thank you for always being the fabulous you that I came to adore some 20+ years ago! You were my friend, protector and the greatest big brother ever! Love you Bryan!mom3crazygirlshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17888922285492131194noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1768680258541622888.post-80910119844548284452011-03-30T08:49:55.357-04:002011-03-30T08:49:55.357-04:00Great post, Bryan. I know you're not the only ...Great post, Bryan. I know you're not the only one to wrestle with these particular demons; thanks for being open enough to talk about them. That takes a lot of courage, my friend.Jeffhttp://zoidland.comnoreply@blogger.com